today was my favorite workers last day
I think i’m going to go for a cider run to float this out, instead of vaping to astronomical lvlz then having to deal with 3 more daze of work.
head on while making $
head off phone off while not
+ I have a mix to make and this mix isn’t going to make it self
been working hard (consciously) on my social anxieties // trying to disprove it as a real thing
but it’s not working
especially after that god awful cult meeting where I wanted to die, everything that “program” entailed was the antithesis of a trig___
wanted to crawl underneath my plastic folding chair, I took a walk instead -that’s where I found the “Wisdom Room”
+ after yesterday ugh. Should I search for this lady, she liked my dj’ing (lolz)?
I haven’t met anyone i’m attracted to & wanted to have an introductory conversation with in a sober environment w/o any connections to anyone I know -Probably ever in my lifetime
Now I have to try to find her maybe?
it’s winter. i’m like 70% present for everything. everything’s under the fuzzy foggy cold filter coinciding with the atmosphere.
A lot of issues come up everyday because it’s what I do and you know what I say? -I say relax, put that where back there, I don’t care, and lot’s of do this and do it this way. Big Fun.
The counteractions to the daily actions is where and when things get funny.
Thursday went to a friends exhibit, stood next to someone in the underground world I admired. Walked down went to get the J. A man hopped onto the tracks and laid down. 3 or 4 men attempted to pull him up. They succeeded. Seconds later the train came rolling down the tracks. We DJ’d we drank met some folks shook some hands had some convos. Wrapped up, remembered my homie was tending, I was obnoxious somewhat so I ate a tamale hailed a cab and all was well in the universe.
Forgot i’m Djing a fashion show Saturday…guess I should prepare eh?
A big holiday in my business is coming up and that means workworkworkworkwork. We’re taking on more wholesale workworkwork.
“It’s not because of a lack of talent. It’s because of a lack of access. People hire who they know. If it’s been a white boys club for 70 years, that’s a lot of white boys hiring one another. And I don’t believe that that happens out of any specific racism or sexism or prejudice. People hire their friends. They hire who they know. It’s comfortable. You want to be successful, you don’t want to take any chances, you don’t want to rock the boat by hiring people of color because, well, look at us,” she said. “Both Betsy and I like the world that we work in to look like the world that we live in. Different voices make for different visions. Different visions make for something original. Original is what the public is starving for.”
thanks for our fourth psychotic interaction. 10pm you’re knocking on my door with your dog in hand telling me you have bed bugs. You’re walking around with ur bed bug self and bed buggy dog in hand going door to door telling everyone.
So if I wanted to take any preventive measurements asap I couldn’t because it’s 10pm at night. Fuck it i’m going to continue drinking and watching cartoons.
Week after week -this shit don’t stop
I live in an insanely expensive deluxe cardboard box inside of a mental institution apparently
What about the audience set-up? Do you have preferences between the cinema context—where everyone is in rows and their attention is directed forward at a screen—or the gig or club situation?
Cosey: It depends what music you’re playing in a club.
Chris: You can really play the audience in a club. If you really fine tune the sounds you’re using you can lift them up, bring them down, alter their reactions quite interestingly.
Cosey: Well, that’s what it’s for, that’s why people go to clubs. The conjoined experience.
Chris: And I do enjoy doing that.
Cosey: You’re feeding off their feelings towards the music, then that comes back out again and sort of accelerates and accumulates to a point where you just don’t know what to do—euphoria.
Chris: It’s a good feeling, that.
Cosey: We’ve had quite a few gigs like that lately. I’ve said it before but you reach a point where you’re so excited and euphoric with the people that you suddenly have to go, “Hang on a minute, I’m making the sound that’s creating this feeling so I’d better concentrate on what I’m going to do next!”
Chris: We got that at Heaven, definitely. The crowd were really behind us. I’d been concerned about the London crowd—London crowds can be difficult, they’ve seen it all, been there before, bought the t-shirt and they can be difficult crowds, but that night they were behind us all the way and they loved every minute of it. People mouthing the words that Cosey was singing, they knew all the songs, it was a high-energy gig, was that.
Cosey: It made me want to change the words!
Chris: You can get mischievous. But that was a highlight definitely of this year.
Today is better than yesterdays first half hours. Yesterday ended well.
Walking around meeting a friend randomly, meeting new people + drink hookups, getting my favorite sandwich with him, going to the same show, seeing an act that had a huge impact on my life upon first discovery. Leaving the venue and getting the bus which practically drops me off at my doorstep.
It’s 6:29am and i’m going to go return an expired coconut water I brought last night.