feeling like Indiana Jones in the cave with that giant meatball
and all those mummies trying to get to me across from the spaghetti pit
Hope this medicine works, another day of this w/o a doc is gonna be tuff
Was regretting ever ___ but now i’m glad because everything that isn’t what it _____ have been can’t compare. and everything that wasn’t what it ____ have been now seems very minuscule in comparison.
Would something similar ever happen again? who knows and I don’t care. Free and dreamy. Keep it here
isn’t it funny how all a human person needs is accessibility to make bad decisions.
this upcoming decision is pretty bad since I can’t/don’t have an escape route/plan b for it
It’s more of a -I made it & stay prepared to handle the consequences
its whatever the real scary part is the gigantic poisonous ball of apathy that grows inside of me, but
Wish i had a shell
I’d be more self sufficient streamlined probably a good chamber to hear music in as well
and most importantly -To crawl into! and shield myself from all of the outside world, all people babies and kittens
You are exceptionally talented at sports and enjoy working out and pushing yourself. But in relationships, you tend to shy away from the people you’re attracted to. You sometimes don’t notice if someone is gay or straight. You’re sweet, a good friend, and you broke our hearts when you left the show.
Dang. I wanted something good Dana was chill ugh
Am I a chill
I think it’s time to put the peace pipe down when you’re having dreams about hanging with an ex-something from a long time ago and your sister at an open air island bar in Brookyln. Then out of nowhere a gigantic pink Moko Jumbie with a black mask on. comes along and swallows a Marcus Garvey character on stilts whole, as part of some street play… while Buju Banton - Bonafide Love plays
What the hell.
Well I did travel to eat doubles yesterday…
:/ ayyy yi yi
today was my favorite workers last day
I think i’m going to go for a cider run to float this out, instead of vaping to astronomical lvlz then having to deal with 3 more daze of work.
head on while making $
head off phone off while not
+ I have a mix to make and this mix isn’t going to make it self
been working hard (consciously) on my social anxieties // trying to disprove it as a real thing
but it’s not working
especially after that god awful cult meeting where I wanted to die, everything that “program” entailed was the antithesis of a trig___
wanted to crawl underneath my plastic folding chair, I took a walk instead -that’s where I found the “Wisdom Room”
+ after yesterday ugh. Should I search for this lady, she liked my dj’ing (lolz)?
I haven’t met anyone i’m attracted to & wanted to have an introductory conversation with in a sober environment w/o any connections to anyone I know -Probably ever in my lifetime
Now I have to try to find her maybe?
it’s winter. i’m like 70% present for everything. everything’s under the fuzzy foggy cold filter coinciding with the atmosphere.
A lot of issues come up everyday because it’s what I do and you know what I say? -I say relax, put that where back there, I don’t care, and lot’s of do this and do it this way. Big Fun.
The counteractions to the daily actions is where and when things get funny.
Thursday went to a friends exhibit, stood next to someone in the underground world I admired. Walked down went to get the J. A man hopped onto the tracks and laid down. 3 or 4 men attempted to pull him up. They succeeded. Seconds later the train came rolling down the tracks. We DJ’d we drank met some folks shook some hands had some convos. Wrapped up, remembered my homie was tending, I was obnoxious somewhat so I ate a tamale hailed a cab and all was well in the universe.
Forgot i’m Djing a fashion show Saturday…guess I should prepare eh?
A big holiday in my business is coming up and that means workworkworkworkwork. We’re taking on more wholesale workworkwork.