that cool thing I do when I’m hanging with someone I really like -avoiding eye contact, spouting words like a broken water fountain saying a bunch of awful things I don’t really mean just to turn them off, being rude crude w/ a slight tude, letting ice fill my veins, dazing off, seeing white inside my eyelids
Making nice progress on the music. Fairly satisfied how that’s going
Hope I get my virtual cables routed right so I can record a jamathon sesh
Life whatever, it’s not great it’s not bad
making music certainly doesn’t make me feel any better, it just becomes another one of those things. like oh i made something it’s not very good nor horribly bad.
Yet I can’t stop doing it
Mediocre at everything for life
I guess i’m going to go out side now, beats being depressed here getting ready for another depressing work day.
And there’s the news. Bunch of ants in a anthillSep 22
I drank a bottle of nigori, listened to this 2x, ordered chinese food around the corner and hardly buttoned my shirt. Watched 7 episodes of New Girl. listened to this about 3 more times. Wednesday
Tell me this summers not going well!
life would be different if I liked being approached or handled other people showing interest -well
If I handled it well
but I do not
When I go out nowadays, I just want to watch other people having fun.
Listen to the music have a drink or 5. Interaction disrupts that ^ contentment.
It’s a thing, we all have things no?
doesn’t compare to Old Bae (r.i.p/fuck those thieves)
but it is sturdier, i’m not as fast as I was on the Bianchi but maybe i’ll get back up to those speeds as I get used to the gear ratio/DT shifters
I have nothing to write about. except music and parties
and how much I love Mezcal
keep on rocking in the free world